Tomorrow... I have to say good- bye to my dear pet rat Dove..
For the past few months.. She has been developing a very bad tumor by her back legs... And yesterday.. I had to decide that it was time to set her free..
I can't even begin to explain how I feel about this whole thing..
I nearly broke down at work today just thinking about watching her go..
I feel like I'm taking her life away.. That I'm giving her no chance.. That I'm.. Betraying her ..
It not like her tumor is cancerous.. But she has lived longer than most rats and if we were to get it removed.. There's no telling how long she'd have left..
Plus the cost is just so much..
To be honest guys.. I feel like my heart is being torn in two..
Having to make this decision all on my own took so much of my strength...
I'm completely drained..
I'm not ready to say good-bye..
I don't want her to go..
I love her so much..
But deep down.. I know this is right...
It just kills me to know that's the truth...
I'll always love you Dove.. And whatever happens tomorrow... I'll never forget you...
Sta.sh
